Friday, October 18, 2013

Fears of the Future

The future is a scary concept, especially for a girl like me. In other words, it is scary for someone who plans out every detail of her life down to the minute. The future is exciting in the sense that it creates an opportunity to start fresh—a clean slate. However, isn’t that also one of the very things that scares us most about the future? We have worked so hard to establish ourselves in our current setting, yet it is nearly time to pack up and start from square one again. It’s a bit frightening, isn’t it? The thought of packing up all of our things…leaving everything behind…meeting new people…learning new things…

Yesterday, as I was filling out my graduation application, my future was on my mind even more than usual. Thoughts of “where will end up for my internship?” and “who will I be living with?” flooded my mind. For the longest time, I thought I had my future mapped out—each pit stop meticulously pinpointed. However, I’ve certainly learned that life rarely ever goes as planned. Meredith Grey once said in a closing of an episode of Grey’s Anatomy

We spend our whole lives worrying about the future, planning for the future, trying to predict the future, as if figuring it out will cushion the blow. But the future is always changing. The future is the home of our deepest fears and wildest hopes. But one thing is certain when it finally reveals itself. The future is never the way we imagined it.”

In the past, I often worried tirelessly about my future. However, the last year has taught me that life brings so many twists and turns that change our fate. While it is important to plan ahead and be prepared, I’ve learned that I also need to be flexible. Even though life sometimes throws its wrenches our way, I wholeheartedly believe that each diversion from our path is a step towards where we are truly meant to be—a step closer to the path God has laid out for us. It’s easy for us to become obsessed with our own plans that we forget about God’s plans. Sometimes our plans don’t always align with what God has laid out for us. And that is okay. However, sooner or later, we will find ourselves moving in the right direction. 

 As you move forward with your plans for the week ahead and even the next years to come, I hope that you keep this perspective in mind. Life can be terribly frustrating. But sometimes we need to take a step back, take a deep breath, and ask ourselves "Is this part of God's plan to get me on track?"

1 comment:

  1. At this point, my husband and I are living with a very unsure future. We don't know where we'll be living a year from now--but it does take claiming every single day that we know God has a plan for us, even if we don't yet know the specifics!