They say the month of April either comes in like a lion or lamb, and then departs in the opposite manner. Well, sometimes I think our weeks have that tendency as well. A week ago, my week certainly came in like a lamb and then by the end of the week, I kind of felt like the lion was trying to eat me. Allow me to clarify.
For those of you who follow me on social media, you probably know that my last few months have been consumed with the tedious process of dietetic internship applications. My life has either been a wave of excitement after submitting my applications or constantly feeling worried after not hearing back from internship directors. After that entire process, April 6, 2014 marked that fateful turning point in my life. With a simple action of logging into DICAS, there it was: Illinois State University in Normal, IL! Words cannot describe my excitement after all of those months of anxiety and fear. Not even just those months of preparation, but those years of anticipating this day….it was the best feeling ever. In fact, I even burst into tears…but if you know me well, then you know that is not really all that uncommon. Excitement? Sadness? My tears don’t really discriminate.
However, as the week went on, the cloud nine I was on was soon replaced by discouraging news. Not long ago, just a few days after I arrived home from my spring break mission trip to San Francisco, CA, I learned that my yellow lab, Maggie had cancer in her back leg and probably wouldn't have much longer with us. I was devastated. The moment I heard this information from my mom is one I’m not soon to forget. However, weeks had passed and it started to feel like the day would never arrive that I would have to say goodbye to my best friend…that is, until I arrived back at my hometown over the weekend. “Maggie has an appointment at 4:30pm at the vet…” I didn’t want to believe it. I think it’s difficult for people who have never had a dog to understand. They become a part of your family. They have their own personality that brings so much happiness to your days.
|Hard to believe this was just 2 weeks ago...|
That night as I lay awake in bed, I decided to walk around the house to clear my mind. The silence was almost haunting. Where you would normally hear the jingling of Maggie’s collar, there was nothing.
While my week that had started out so wonderfully, it didn't quite end the way I had anticipated, one thing that I was able to take from both experiences was the overwhelming amount of support that both my friends and family have given me. From celebrating with me while I couldn't wipe the stupid smile off my face after learning of my match date result, to giving me an incredibly heartwarming card and arrangement of flowers that brought me to tears yet again—it’s pretty humbling to see all of the people that care about you and are with you through thick and thin.
While I usually reserve this corner of the universe for sharing words of encouragement, today I simply want to say “thank you.” You all make this life—in both its up and downs—SO worth it.